I feel like the only way to make anyone in power notice how desperate I am and how much I need help is to die.
It won’t help me, of course; I’ll be dead. But I keep thinking maybe it would be the tipping point so that The Powers That Be would have to notice what their lack of compassion and refusal to help is doing to poor people, disabled people, mentally ill people. Maybe by dying, I’d finally make them notice and listen to me. I obviously can’t accomplish anything while I’m alive, so maybe I can finally do something good by dying. Maybe it’ll make someone listen.
But who am I kidding? I’m not important enough for anyone in power to notice, let alone listen to. When I die, I won’t even be a statistic. I don’t even matter enough for that.