(This is not about anybody here.)
I wish people would stop trying to fix me. I’m not looking for people to fix my circumstances for me. My circumstances suck, and there’s really no way around that at this point in time. I’m a smart and resourceful person, and if there were solutions that would work, I would’ve found them. When people try to fix my life, we just go around and around in circles because I have already made use of all the resources that are available to me, so I just end up feeling more isolated and hopeless because it just becomes this litany of suggestions and rejections. That just distances me from everyone, and that’s the last thing I need.
What I really need is support, not fixing. I need people to relate to me as a person, not as a problem to be solved and then checked off the list. I have no connections in real life. I don’t matter to anyone. No one is even around to notice I’m having a major PTSD meltdown, let alone care about that fact. I need to feel like people understand and care, but when people give me a long list of “have you tried this,” I feel like I’m not even really a person. I wasn’t a person to the people who hurt me, and now I’m not a person to the people I’m looking to for support, either. I know that’s not the intention, but that’s how it feels to me. It feels like no one wants to actually listened to what happened or how I feel about it, so they just throw solutions at me from a distance. So I don’t know, maybe I really don’t belong here. Maybe I don’t belong anywhere. I feel like I shouldn’t talk at all.