Lost.

We lost.

And I have no more reason for existing.  No more justification.

I’m just so tired, and I don’t want to fight anymore.  Things are just going to get worse from here.

No more fighting.  I don’t have it in me anymore.  I’m done.

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  1. You can’t take election results more seriously than the candidate and she is going to survive. Elections are just one aspect of policy advocacy, and they depend on often flawed candidates. Your governor candidate had already lost a state-wide election that was supposed to be a walk.

    I one time did advance work for Walter Mondale. His loss really stung. But he survived, the Republic survived (sort of) and I survived. I still wish he had beaten Reagan, but it doesn’t sting as much anymore.

    Remember politics is supposed to be service to the constituents. That ought to go on whether the candidate wins or not. Who knows, this may open up an opportunity for a really good candidate next time that would have been blocked if your candidate won.

    I understand the frustration, but it’s the price you pay for doing this work. You are not the only disappointed supporter tonight. Frankly, I really haven’t seen a massacre like this, ever. It’s time for the Democrats to re-tool.

    • Okay, no, you don’t get to come on my blog and tell me how I can and can’t feel.

      My candidate will go on and survive because she has the financial means to do that. I don’t. This election was my last hope that things would improve for people like me (poor, disabled, crazy, invisible), but under Baker’s administration, the benefits that are already not enough to survive on will probably be cut. The mental health services I need are not going to come. The improvements to public transit that I need in order to live independently will not come to western Mass, especially since indexing the gas tax (which would’ve fund road repairs and public transit) also got defeated. I’m not even going to get into all the fuckery that’s going to happen on the federal Congressional level. Basically, what keeps me alive is probably going to be taken away. For me, this is not about disappointment. It’s about survival.

      • You”re right, Kyra, it’s all about you. No one else is going to suffer as a result of the trouncing Democrats took all over the country. I see now that it was all done to screw you.

        BTW, if you don’t want comments, turn the comments off or not approve them.

      • Yes, on MY blog, MY space, it damn well is about me. But the work I did was also about the thousands of other people in circumstances similar to mine, and other people in other crappy circumstances that aren’t similar to mine. A lot of us lost yesterday, but I don’t presume to speak for anyone but myself.

  2. *hugs*

    I was feeling very disappointed and hopeless after learning the election results, too, to the point of having suicidal thoughts. It’s a difficult thing to face.

    I really feel for you and wish there were something I could do to help improve your situation. Whatever choice you make, I want to thank you for all you’ve shared on your blog and the support you’ve shown me on my blog. You’re an awesome person and you deserve so much better!

  3. Sorry to hear you guys lost. Another election is when – in 2 or 4 years?
    Kyra, please rest and then have a look at the sites of crowdfunding and even the Warren Buffet article – might be good for scholarship/tuition money?
    I know you gave it your all, and you’re exhausted now. Please don’t make any important decisions in such a state.
    You know we’ll be here if you need us, you ARE a wonderful important person and deserve to live!
    Reason for existing? There are still many things wrong in the world and when you recuperate some and rest and such, you are a person who can help make’em better!

    • That’s an interesting question. There will be another presidential election in two years, and all the members of the House of Representatives will also have to run for reelection. Senate terms are 6 years, but not all of the Senate elections are in the same year. (For instance, this year in Massachusetts we reelected Sen. Ed Markey, but Elizabeth Warren won’t be up for reelection until 2018. (Unless she runs for president. There’s a lot of speculation about that, although she’s said she has no plans to run until at least 2020.)

      I have nothing left to fight with. Sometimes surrender is the only sensible option. I’m done trying to fix the world.

  4. I’m sorry, my friend. When you have so many things you are being forced to fight for, losing the one thing that makes you feel alive is so terrible. xox I know how you feel.

  5. I know it fucking sucks! The world is going to hell in a republican hand basket and I don’t care who hears me blame them! Screw their crummy values! I wish I could add more, but I would just get vitriolic and really depressed in the process. But I am with you, Kyra. Totally bummed out. (Frankly my belief has been all along that the Republicans intransigence has everything to do with their abiding hatred for a dark-skinned president, and a huge undercurrent of racism that still exists in this country…but I won’t say that too too loud..)

  6. to the commenter who slammed Kyra, shut up. go somewhere else with your nastiness. Kyra is allowed to say what she wants on her blog.
    Kyra, I don’t know much about Us politics, but my so tells me republicans just want to make the rich richer and the poor poorer. that’s not right. I’m so sorry you lost. xoxo

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