My roommates are moving out at the end of the month. They said they’d find me a new roommate, but they haven’t done shit.
I’m 1500 miles away, taking care of my mother after surgery. I’ve been trying to find someone on Craigslist, but no dice.
I have to find $800 by the first of the month to pay the full rent on the apartment. Then there’s utilities and food, and the $150 I owe my boyfriend for the plane ticket down here. Oh, and the plane ticket back home that I don’t know if I’ll be able to afford.
I get $700 a month from SSI/SSDI. That math doesn’t work.
And all I can think of is killing myself because there’s no other way out. There never is. It just doesn’t get better because I’m sick and poor and that’s not changing in the foreseeable future.
I don’t want to die, but how the hell am I supposed to survive?